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Pain carved just for me in ways far from reach

Shaped art or did I bleed? stained canvas still in need, when did this become me?

Raw, pure, immense pain, I claw trying to peel it away

Invisible feelings make me look insane, whether it's love whether it's pain

The concept of healing seems to fade, weather is sun weather is rain

Pain, so popular in my heart and mind you'll find it in every corner of this very piece

Pain pain pain, I hope you can feel it as I say, I hope it's just as excruciating

Clutch my chest trying to rip my heart out, grab my head trying to squeeze this word out

and if only it were just a word I'd erase it from the dictionary so it can lose it's meaning

and imprint

I am in pain like it is my home yet it is in me like it needs my soul to feed on

while the walls close in and i stop breathing, scream to the top of my lungs but the ocean floods

and silently it all stands still, peace thrives in chaos, knees weak but my mind in snow

drop dead gorgeous but do I really want to die alone in somebody's house I don't know?

Fuck it, I'll overdose in this overflowing pain, pills, powder, pour it in a cup and here's to...

who even am I? a pawn in pain's game, this never-ending cycle, days become weeks and

I don't want to speak while the nights become life and I feel like I'm dying but I'm still alive

yet I'm too numb to fight, I know there's a light but it's out of sight and I feel it inside,

if anybody asks, I'm fine,