An excuse for an intro.

Hi. I suppose this is an intro before i start posting random rambles of what i think is and isn't, of my feelings and conflicts, of literally anything stuck at the tip of my tongue.

So here i am, in bed, behind a computer screen, feet cold as fuck even though I'm wearing thick ass socks. Someone explain!!!

By writing this i feel like someone said "Tell me about yourself." Like what the fuck right? i mean... i exist?

Okay well this is an attempt in telling you about myself... I've managed to convince myself I'm 5'9 but in reality I'm probably 5'6 which i hate cause I'd rather be at least 6'4. I have a thing for height, don't judge me.

Let's move to how i want to look like Micheal B Jordan even though i accidently consume over 100 calories a day and at the end of each day i look in the mirror and see Melissa McCarthy, though in reality I'm both of them combined. If Micheal B Jordan and Melissa McCarthy had a baby he'd probably look like me.... Nevermind, no. Don't- don't think of that.

Don't make fun of me I'm fragile.

I can't even tell you which show is my favourite cause every show literally is.

13 reasons why Euphoria Game Of Thrones Ginny and Georgia The office Atypical The 100 And anything with romance in it really.

Yeah, I'm a fucking hopeless romantic which doesn't make sense because looking at my love life? I suck. I practically don't have one and it's 100% not because i spend my life waiting for someone to casually fall in love with me while i stay in my bed room all day(I advice against going outside though, very peoply out there and this is 100% not coming from a 60% extrovert). But on the bright side, i fucking love love. I love everything about it. Everything there is about it, everything i have yet to figure out about it and everything love has yet to give. You'll see most of my posts will be based on that dreadful for lettered word. On that note, allow me to list the things I'm utterly obsessed with besides Beyoncé(very necessary note : Never play a Beyoncé song around me, please. The man in me disappears and out comes my inner diva)

Obsessions. 1. Love. (Duh.) 2. Music. (You wouldn't tell i practically can't play a single instrument and my vocal cords don't exist.) 3. The sun & moon (Ugh!) 4. Soccer (I breathe soccer) 5. Women (Certified freak by nature.) 6. The list is way longer cause I'm just very obsessive over anything, including my future soul mate who could be literally anywhere in the world.

I'm 19 years old, born in a sad generation and possibly the CEO of depression but within a minute I'm theeee happiest person alive. In conclusion I'm a vessel of overwhelm! Any emotion i tell ya, I'm almost always overwhelmed and for what right?! Love me for it though.

I love reading. It sometimes becomes an escape i don't want to come back from. I get consumed by books, even the characters of it. I always read romance novels, I'm also a sucker for wattpad books and my own books. (Sometimes i act like i didn't write them and re-read them, acting surprised every time and laughing at every lame joke cause I'm just that lonely.)

I recently have grown a spot for philosophy so that's that. Still trying to figure that shit out though cause i can't seem to bring myself to open a philosophy book. I am trying though. I have lots of philosophy pdf's collecting dust so... Two of my several favourite philosophers is Plato and Mark Manson. They've given me insight in a lot. And if i may, allow me to drop two of my several fourite qoutes said by them.

"Wise men speak because they have something to say, fools speak because they have to say something." - Plato

"The desire for more positive experience is itself a negative experience. And, paradoxically the acceptance for one's negative experience is itself a positive experience." - Mark Manson

I'd love to get to know my reader so if you'd like please drop a comment on anything from my intro... and press that subscribe to get a notification for every post. Thank you. :)

And now that I've managed to put you to sleep, i will close off my excuse for an intro with a virtual kiss to the cheek 💋