Dimensions & beautiful scars

I love our space, so peaceful with gravity trying to do us a favour, trying to hold us down when we go so high we get lost in the sky. I love this, these ups and downs while growth takes the wheel and demands a love so strong it breaks alien laws, and allows us to create a new form of a perfectly imperfect love. Our love is authentic fantasy.

1. I'm captivated, starstruck fuck the world around me dissolved as soon as I laid my eyes on you. I'm nervous and excited at the same time because a stranger just stole my heart a stranger just invaded my sanctum and made it ours. I took a few steps forward gravitating to this new universe, this fascination of beauty and... just like that I was hers. I found love in her laugh and got lost in her glistening coffee brown eyes. That goddam smile got me in love with this point of life, this plot twist of you being my constant thought. Til this day I wonder what I possibly could've done to be gifted with your presence, cross paths with such but I couldn't have wasted any more time trying to figure it out. I knew I had to make you mine, I knew I had to get my act up and make it my assignment to make your days, force imprint smiles on your face cause what else would I rather admire. I felt ready for you, ready to flip my whole world and merge. I needed to make sure that friends heard 'me' in the way you talk and saw me in the light of your eyes. I like it when time moves fast but I had to slow it down and enjoy every moment of every second experiencing you. I had to make you mine. And so, deeper we fell, became one and all.

   
   

2. It's always the dumb ones who are gifted with the most beautiful of souls, walking angels cursed with careless idiots to protect them. And so, I was a careless idiot. One night, I wounded cupid and the moon crumbled in my palms, I watched the love of my life slip right through my fingers because hurt people hurt people and I'd found myself bleeding on you. In the snap of a finger I was a man-made villain and that distasteful realization, the fear of losing the half to my whole, my giant love and many more passions of the heart I cannot yet greatly put into detail, all these unending factors stood up against me and beat me black and blue. I surrendered entirely, submitted myself and fought the best that I could to bring you home. At first I went about it the wrong way, punished myself over and over, listened to the echo of my heart shatters just as yours did. Until I found your hand perfectly slipping into mine, until it was you shining your light onto me. You picked up the pieces of your heart and taught me how to do the same, showed me that in my own way I could put them together, showed me that it was okay to feel this way.

   
   

3. From my observations, I've realized that forgiveness varies greatly for each person. Have you ever been forgiven by others but struggled to forgive yourself? This process turns into a personal journey, a form of self-healing that is somewhat self-focused. Yet, while learning to forgive myself, I found myself falling in love once more, irrevocably and intentionally, as if my heart was irresistibly attracted to this particular flower. It blooms at the very core of my heart. And again, without me even saying but through my actions and the way my gaze just so caresses her soul. I love you, Above and beyond more than I ever have more than I've ever felt. I bury myself in company to drown the sound of your voice yet even so your very smile appears on my own face to that I cannot hide, so I pretend to smile at the topic discussed within the group. I pretend like my stomach isn't elevating as of this moment, I pretend like I'm not falling in love while you're out of sight. Out of sight but in my mind running circles in every quiet room because quiet is so much better with you. Our lips sealed but our hearts exchanging endless conversations and diving into each other's worlds. Immerse me, I give you permission to take over and engulf my very idea of love. Drench me in your ocean and let me absorb the very fabric of you, bit by bit, slowly and surely. Confidently yours. I'm guilty of losing myself in you and honestly, I'm not trying to find my way back, not just yet, I don't even want to think about those days but to savour this very hour to the very last minute with you, a minute stretching to eternity...you know, forever and always. Fantasies, fantasies, I hope even in the next life we lock eyes, feel that flutter involunteerily, and wonder about each other all over again.

I love our space, so peaceful with gravity trying to do us a favour, trying to hold us down when we go so high we get lost in the sky. I love this, these ups and downs while growth takes the wheel and demands a love so strong it breaks alien laws, and allows us to create a new form of a perfectly imperfect love. Our love is authentic fantasy.