Love at first what?

I don't believe in love at first sight but... when I first laid my set of dark brown coffee orbs on you my mind became instantly and utterly consumed by your appealing nature of beauty. Or maybe that wasn't it but I can't deny your electrifying touch intoxicating my entire being of existence. You wiped me out and I need you to explain. Explain how you knocked me out of my shoes and into the body of a fool who's tongue was suddenly heavy and eyes were suddenly stuck on you. I'd be lying if I said you're fool's gold just cause you casually shined and glistened the depths of me without consent. Piercing my very knowledge with extraordinary promises of us, of our existence. You're gold itself. The chemical element of atomic number 79, yellow and precious. Oh how deceiving you are. Promising me with riches. Riches of unending love.

At first sight. All at first sight.

But it never ended there did it? It was never just a glimpse or a sweet exchange of 'Hello's'. It should've just been that but love was stronger.

A coffee date. A drunken night. A sloppy kiss. A perfect smile. That's all it took.

That's all it took for me to break.

Because... before you I was different. Before you I was a lot and I knew a lot about me. I had dignity, i loved myself, i valued myself, i was the King of my own world until you smiled my direction. I conquered all and feared nothing until your chocolate brown orbs pierced right through me. Kinda unfair how you just walked right into my world like my walls didn't exist. They held back so much, they kept every monster away, they shielded my heart, hid my soul and gave me peace. But they trembled and fell when you were close, they feared the monster that is you. You strut passed my soul as it tried to get a grip to hold you back and you headed straight for my heart. I flinched and turned, screamed and clawed but my name left your lips, a soft whisper ripping away everything i knew so my world could fall. And so i did. I fell in hopes you were standing at the bottom, waiting to catch me. I had no choice but to dig the trust I'd buried a thousand feet under just for you. You knew I was afraid of drowning but let me walk on water for you, you knew what heights did to me but let me climb Mount Everest for you, freezing at the edge of a cliff and waiting for you to take my hand. But as i stood on the ocean my foot went through, i tried to grip on something but there was nothing, i even tried to grip the air but huge waves were no challenge for me. They were my defeat. Soon I came to learn you were never at the top of the mountain. When I reached the very top I hoped you'd be waiting for me up there, but you never were. I played myself.

And now I've found myself in a trap no mouse could live through or no deer could escape. How do you feel now that you've slayed the Lion? Is it your greatest achievement cause I damn well would feel like a champion knowing I did what you did to me. You felt like a blessing but turned out to be a curse, a villain with "plans for the better" not realising they were for the worst. You became my worst in a blink of an eye. Have you no shame? Playing me like you did. I'll make you the biggest golden trophy with my name carved on it and hand you my crown cause that's your greatest achievement. Breaking my heart. My heart.

My heart.

Maybe take my throne too. It's made from gold too. Just like you.

We ended up with your pearly white teeth sunk onto my neck, beneath cloudy skies and promising ties. What I thought was love at first sight became love at last bite. If you loved it you'll find a heart shaped button at the bottom. XD